Everythings going to be alright. Rock-a-bye...rock-a-bye...

2.18.2005

4-day weekend

so. . . . its a four day weekend and im already bored, not in such a great mood, and thats that.
Greenday-When I Come Around

I heard you crying loud all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone
and it's me out on the powl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Don't get lonely now
Dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my backyard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so to slag me
down because I know I'm right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self doubt
means nothing was ever there
You can't go forcing something if it's just not right

Incubus- Warning

Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong
With being happy?
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
Yeah

Over and over
And over and over

She woke in the morning
She knew that her life
Had passed her by
She called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by

I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves
Before it's made illegal
When will we learn
When will we change
Just in time to see it
All come down

Those left standing
Will make millions
Writing books on ways
It should have been

She woke in the morning
She knew that her life
Had passed her by
She called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water starting to boil
Now I flinch and
We all float face down

She woke in the morning
She knew that her life
Had passed her by
She called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Pass you by

Posted at 22:08 by CrazedGal
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2.14.2005

Happy Valentines Day!!! <3 <3 <3 (hehehe)

A song. . ... Hope you all have someone to spend this special *Cough-comercialcard-Cough* holiday with. :-D I actually kinda enjoy it. hehe

~The Ataris- I won't spend another night alone
(Change all underlined parts to fit your preference :-D)

A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that i can't explain.

I won't spend another night alone. (x2)

Out of every girl i meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But i promise you that you do.

I won't spend another night alone. (x2)

If i had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.

The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me.

I won't spend another night alone. (x3)

Happy Valentines Day!!!
<3 Erica

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2.9.2005

i got bored, lol

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never knows what you're going to come up with next; this creates great excitement and arousal never knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end in a kiss as great as your mystery.

Cady Heron

Is that a good thing.. ... .???

Happy Year of the Rooster!!!(Chinese New Year) Happy Ash Wednesday!!!!

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2.8.2005

Maybe a song or one.. ... .

Maps by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Pack up
I'm straight
Enough
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say

Wait, they don't love you like i love you
Wait, they don't love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don't love you like i love you...

Made off
Don't stray
My kind's your kind
I'll stay the same

Pack up
Don't stray
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say

Wait! they don't love you like i love you
Wait! they don't love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-aps, wait!
They don't love you like i love you...
Wait! they don't love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-aps, wait!
They don't love you like i love you...

Wait, they don't love you like i love you
Wait, they don't love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don't love you like i love you...
Wait, they don't love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don't love you like i love you...

Posted at 17:25 by CrazedGal
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Happy Half Birthday to ME!!!!!!!

I am 21% evil.

I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.
^is this a good thing. . .... ..

It's my half birthday today. YAY!!!! Umm. . . thats kinda all i got.
yeah, i think i should do my homework now. I have my guard homeshow coming up this weekend. OMG!! im soo excited. YAY!!!! I'll be performing so thatll be sweet yo. Lol, yeah thats all i got for now, except i have a like once-in-a-lifetime chance to go to Washington D.C. to do really cool thing involving Military Training, CIA, CSA, and the FBI Training Academy!!!!! Those who know me well will know that im like flipping out because i could go to the CIA and the FBI!!!! I soooooo want to be in the FBI forensics divison. OMG!!! well got to go, i think ill look for colleges with my majors in them. mmmm, but i should do my homework. mmmm, i could do both. lol, ill blog later.

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2.1.2005

So, they say Tuesday is the most productive day of the week. . . . mmmmm....

DON'T EVEN BE A LITTLE FUCKING SORRY FOR ME OR I'LL KICK YOUR BLOODY FACE IN!!!!!
So, it's official now, im stuck with crutches till for surely next Monday. WooHoo!!! NOT!!!! God, i always used to think, "Crutches, sweet i want those. Their fun!!!!" but their not, i am sooo sore. (And if you havent noticed yet ill come out and tell you, in this blog im gonna bitch, so if ya dont want to read about the sucky-ass-shit in my life, go look at another person's life. HA!!!) I had my doc appt. today and the doc said that i tore a tendon or a muscle [i cant exactly remember which one cuz i was pissed that i miss out on another guard show]. So, im not only stuck with the crutches, i have to wear a cam-walker too [it's like a walking cast, but a little different]. Im so easily tired now that its like ive not only injured my calf, but ive injured all of me making me feel like a piece of shit that needs to depend on somebody else to get something for you cuz you cant carry it while your moving around on your crutches. Thats really all ive got to bitch about cuz i also dont think ill ve able to write much more, my arms and shoulders kill from those crutches. Man, i just get all the bad luck, dont I?
Well, i feel much better now that thats all out. OH and for those who read this and have made fun of those injured people out there, we do not like to be called names or anything else, cuz we are already in enough pain as it is and we dont need any more things to make it worse!

Okay all beeeeettttttter. Ill blog later, hopefully not all bad things next time.
Erica

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1.29.2005

Another Entry

Okay, so i figured i should give you all another entry. Tomorrow i have another guard show, and i feel so bad to say this, but, its gonna be the first guard show ever, since ive joined it three years back, that i have to watch the show from the stands and cheer on the rest of the team. Yesterday, Friday, i was getting up from sitting on the floor during lunch when somthing in the calf snaped and i fell backwards and i guess i hit somebody, i dont remember that part tho, i only remember the calf snap thang and that i fell backwards. well when i tried to get i couldnt so i had to have two of my friends try to help me get to the nurse cuz once they got me up, i couldnt put any weight on my left leg, the leg that had the calf snap thang happen. they couldnt get me to far cuz i was in too much pain, so another friend that came along went to the nurse and got me a wheel chair to use. i stayed at the nurse for an hour and a half, then went to the doctor, i had the doctor stumped for a while cuz he didnt know what could be wrong, and he told me it was too swollen to know for sure and that i possibly have a torn muscle in the back of my calf, specifically the muscle that starts behind the knee and splits in two and meets up together in the ankle. So know until tuesday when my next appt is i have to take Ibprofen(?) and ice and elevate my leg, YAY!!! :-/ well, that about it, umm. . . if your wondering about last week guard show we got 12 out of 13. Well i got to go now, ill write later.
Erica

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1.21.2005

So. . . . ....

So, my first winter guard show is tomorrow at Sauk Rapids, and I am as nervous as I have ever been before a show and i have no clue why. Im not one to get nervous at all and here i am thinking of the worse:
I toss up my sabre for a quad, a solo, and. . .
it comes down perfectly strait in my head.
Now, i know that wont happen, but i think the reason why im getting nervous is because my instructors are making such a big deal about it and coming up to me and asking, "are you nervous. . . will you be nervous. . . are you going to get nervous. . .?" Thanx guys thats real reassuring and helping. Well, i dont know what to say now that ive got that all done with. I think im gonna go. Its snowing terribly outside and i dont think my da's goina let me go to Keisha's house (4 houses away) for a little shindig. That sux cuz i cant stay locked up inside this house, i think im gonna live in the country, theres wide acres out there, and always stuff to do outside instead of being held prisoner in my house, like i feel like now. Gosh! i think im done now. BTW im still trying to come up with a song, i think you all deserve more then an exert from a book. :-)
~Erica

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1.20.2005

Dream World, a place we all long to be. . . ...

Why do we dream, what's the point?
To see something that we just can't
have? To long forever for a perfect life?
To get away from everything and
everybody we hate? Our dreams hardly
ever come true anyway. So why do we
dream? You want, and want, and want
everything you see in your dreams, but
you just will never have it just that way.
So, what's the point? Why dream? Is
there a way to stop it? To me, we are
better off without dreams. We would
never worry about the perfect things
we see in our subconscious when we
are unaware or sleeping. So, why? I just
want to be left alone. All by myself.
I think I would be better off that way;
not knowing the happy things I could have
or want to have. I dream, and I dream, and
I dream, but those dreams never come true.
So, what's the point?

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1.19.2005

a quote. . . ... . . . ...

This time, instead of song lyrics I am going to put in an exert from a book I am reading. The book, titled False Memory by Dean Koontz, is a book I have been reading since January 7th. It is a 751 page book and I am so far 400 pages into it. I think it is kinda slow in the beginning, but it picks up the pace as it goes. Today as I read during 2nd hour, I was so into the book that i was a heartbeat away from jumping up, throwing the book onto the floor, and screaming. It's not a scary book, really, more suspense and wondering. The words on the cover(discription):
"It's a fear more paralyzing than falling.

               More terrifying than absolute darkness.
               More horrifying than anything you can
               imagine. It's the one fear you cannot
               escape, no matter where you run...
               No matter where you hide. It's the fear
               of yourself. It's real. It can happen to you.
               And facing it can be deadly. False Memory.
               Fear for your mind."
Now, it may go off seeming to you to be like a scary book, but the thing is, is that it's only as scary as you want it to be. Now. . . next to come is the exert from a book. Hopefully it doesn't give anything away. I would deeply regret that. I hate ruining the book, but I just like this saying. Well before i say anymore, on to the quote:

   "'Terror and pleasure are linked in us. We are a badly miswired species, Martie. Terror delights us, both the experience of terror and the dealing out of it to others. We are healthier if we admit to this miswiring and do not strugle to be better than out natures allow. You do understand what I'm saying.'
   Her eyes jiggled. REM. She said, 'Yes.'
   'Regardless of what our Creator intended us to be, what we have become is what we are. Compassion, love, humility, honesty, loyalty, truthfulness--these are like those enormous plate-glass windows into which small birds crash repeatedly, stupidly. We bash ourselves to pieces against the glass of love, the glass of truth, foolishly struggling to go where we can never go, to be what we are not wired to be.'
   'Yes.'
   'Power and its primary consequences--death and sex. That's what drives us. Power over others is the thrill of thrills for us. We idolize politicians because they have so much power, and we worship celebrities because their lives appear to be more charged with power than our own. The strong among us seize power, and the weak have the thrill of sacrificing themselves to the power of the strong. Power. The power to kill, to maim, to hurt, to tell other people what to do, how to think, what to believe and our talent, our destiny. And I am going to prepare you to wallow in destuction, Martie, and ultimaely to destroy yourself--to know both the thrill of crushing and of being crushed.'"

Now, hopefully I did not go and give anything away. Theres so many ways to look at it, and so many different interpretations of it that i feel semily safe publishing this. Well, thats all I have got for now, time for bed. I will write something else later.
~Erica

Posted at 21:58 by CrazedGal
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